We Dream What We Want To Dream

I watched Inception with My Small Baby yesterday and hands down, it’s the best movie of the year, so far.

I tried very hard not to read what people had to say on Twitter about it as I am yet to watch it but now that I have, I agree with what most of them have to say; it is indeed a movie that makes you think.

The best movie, so far, this year

However, unlike most, I was not mind fucked at all.

Don’t get me wrong, it is indeed mind-boggling and plays with one’s mind but personally, I have been going through something similar the last few months. I know it’s hard to fathom what I’m saying and I don't expect expect anyone of you to believe, either.


But have you ever experienced going to bed at night with certain thoughts and as you go deeper into your slumber, you will yourself to change the circumstances of those thoughts to achieve the kind of ending you wanted?

Have you?

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I have.

Unlike the movie, however, my own 'inception' is not implanting thoughts onto other people; rather, I do it to myself. I have to. And you know why? Because I had to go back to what happened and wonder if things would have been different if I took other routes, y’know? That is the only way I could've maintained my sanity.

In retrospect, I ask myself, would the outcome be different if I didn’t go with My Small Baby to Penang and stay in Hard Rock? Maybe. Maybe not. Would it be different if I didn’t lose my computer? Maybe. Maybe not.

For months, I had to go through that routine to put myself to sleep. It was the only way I could. And after continuously doing it for some time, it had become a habit for me to do that and it’s reached a point where my thoughts go deeper than what was initially thought or dreamed.

Feel me?

Dreams are a labyrinth of the subconscious mind

As I sleep with the different scenarios in mind, my thoughts then go to what would actually happened had I not done the things I did. And it goes so deeper with the different outcomes that could possibly have happened, and the next thing I know, I’m already waking up from a good night sleep.

So yeah, I totally understand the premise of the whole movie. Also, when I was around 13, I read a couple of short story by the great Argentinian writer Jorge Luis Borges who put across such thoughts.

Oh, I don't know about y'all but I like to believe that in the end, his totem stopped and fell.

How about you?


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