Sorry For Not Being Sorry...



Dayum!

Have you ever gone to sleep with a thought that you felt was right and wake up the next morning thinking otherwise?

I have. Let me tell you that.

Last night, I texted someone who betrayed my trust, made a fool of me and whom I still find hard to forgive, to say that life's too short to be bitter about the past. And while I'm not sorry for what I've done; and as much as I hate to stop, I would.



I had a clear mind what I wanted to do before I went to bed last night. But when I woke up this morning, the feeling of regret for sending that text was overwhelming. And I don't know why.

Sigh...

I'm really torn between continuing what I've been doing and putting a halt to this madness and bitterness.

Oh, whatever I've done is justified, believe you me. The question is whether I could live with my life knowing that as a payback, like the way I was made to look like a fool, I would reverse the roles.

Would that give me the satisfaction?

Maybe, maybe not.


Honestly, I feel like it's a catch 22 situation. For me to fully move on, I need to make that person pay. But should I make that person pay, I wouldn’t be able to move on.

For what happened, there'll be no forgiving and forgetting, just moving on.

And all I want to do is just move on.

Sigh…


P.S.

I'll let that person decide. I'm sure You still have my number. All You have to do is pick up the dial and call. Let's see if Your arrogance will allow you to ask for forgiveness and call a truce.

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