I'm old :(

This afternoon and for the very first time in my life if I may add, I felt old :(

I don't know why but while I was at the curve having lunch, I looked around and started to mentally picture myself doing what the people around me were doing and I just couldn't, for the life of me, imagine myself doing the same things and be happy about it.

I must be really getting old that I can't even imagine myself doing all the non-purposeful stuff that I have always enjoyed. Maybe my outlook has changed but then again, I am still the same kid I have always been. What the fuck is wrong with me then? :(

I hope it was just nothing but a bout of temporary madness…

Or what if I am really old? That could be the worst, really...

I have always been a kid at heart and even now, I still feel like a kid but what happened this afternoon was something unexpected; it is just so unlike me to even think about such things...

But I did and as I sat there like Yoda abosrbing the surrounding and activities before me, I asked myself if I would still enjoy doing the normal things that I normally do and would I still be doing them?

Again, I just hope it was just nothing but a bout of temporary madness…

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