Countdown to loneliness and emptiness begins...

Eleanor Roosevelt, wife of Franklin Roosevelt - the 32nd President of the United States of America - was once famously quoted for saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder"

Does it? Does absence really make hearts fonder?

Previously, I touched briefly on my Small Baby's impending departure to India to take on a temporary job ferrying the Muslim pilgrims to Saudi Arabia during the Hajj period. Scheduled to leave yesterday, I got a temporary retrieve from temporary loneliness when the people that employed her decided to conduct the training here in KL instead, as opposed to Jeddah, the original venue.

Today is her first day of training and it should take approximately a week to finish. At least, I would get to spend more time with her; more time to look, touch, hear, kiss, hug, and cuddle and tell her how much I love her...

The realization that I would be separated from her, albeit temporary, makes my stomach wretched in an unexplained pain. Lately, ever since I knew of her departure, I've tried to put on a brave face for both of our sake. I can't allow her to see my innermost pain and emptiness, fearing that by doing so, she would sacrifice her happiness for my own yet again...

I know what flying means to her and what happiness it brings her; so despite the pain, I would shoulder on and be strong for her. I know it is not easy for her as well; besides me, she's leaving her family too and she is extremely attached to them, specially her mom and her 'popoh'. Leaving them behind would be harder for her, more so than leaving me...

This is a woman who has never left home, ever. Even when she received more lucrative offers from Singapore Airlines and Emirates, she stayed home because she couldn't bring herself to part ways with her family. Like me, they also know that this temporary separation would do my Small Baby a lot of good and no matter how painful and unbearable it may seem, we all know this is the best thing for her. And what's best for her is also what's best for us...

3 months may be a short period of time but a lot could also happen during that time... Lucky for me and my Small Baby, I know deep in my heart, our love will stand the test of time. We love each other too much to let such temporary separation affect what we feel for reach other. And in our case, this absence will only allow us to appreciate each other in more ways than before...

And even as the countdown to temporary separation and loneliness begins, I am more looking forward to welcoming her back... As she goes within the week, she knows she would bring with her my love, my life and my soul...

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